shallow life

i'm afraid of walking out
i'm afraid of not being what i wanna be
i'm afraid of being rejected
i'm afraid of accepting
i'm afraid of thinking about what life brings
i'm afraid to be different and not accepted
i'm afraid of not being capable
i'm afraid to decide
i'm afraid of following
i'm afraid to lead
i'm afraid of future
i'm afraid to face what's surrounding
i'm afraid of having no one
i'm afraid to get left
i'm afraid to be found
i'm afraid to seek for an escape
i'm afraid to see tomorrow
but i'm afraid to die
sometimes i'm afraid to express my feelings
but those are not to be spoken...

cuz i'm afraid to show fear